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Its been two weeks since I quit my job and yes the one thing I miss most about my old job is the unlimited internet access.I can't blog as often as I used but have said to myself I will dedicate at least an hour every week so that I don'y lose touch with my creativity. I also set myself to go on a twenty one day fast since the first of October and to my surprise this fast instead of making me feel anointed and great has instead been bringing to light areas that are not aligned to God's will, I have learnt with shame how I had wrong motives and attitudes that did not bring glory to God and am glad that God's grace is sufficient and in these weakness His power is made stronger. I am still going ahead with the fast and who knows what else He is gonna expose in me but I choose to make myself pliable , Have your way Holy Spirit. I felt a bit low yesterday and the enermy was trying to make me regret leaving my job and almost lost my peace than I remembered whose voice told me

ZEAL FOR THE LORD

In our bible reading programme in Proverbs, one particular verse struck me because it contained a big word 'ZEAL 'Proverbs 23:17"Do not let your heart envy sinners,but always be zealous for the fear of the LORD" We need to have an understanding of what it means to be zealous for the Lord, to be radically passionate about the things of God and His Holiness. We need to be zealous for God's honour as Phineas the Priest was..in Numbers chapter 25: "Then an Israelite man brought to his family a Midianite woman right before the eyes of Moses and the whole assembly of Israel while they were weeping at the entrance to the Tent of Meeting. 7 When Phinehas son of Eleazar, the son of Aaron, the priest, saw this, he left the assembly, took a spear in his hand 8 and followed the Israelite into the tent. He drove the spear through both of them—through the Israelite and into the woman's body. Then the plague against the Israelites was stopped; 9 but those who died in th

R.I.P Grandma

My Grandma and I when I was still a baby On the 10th of September 2008 my paternal grandmother Susan Gotora passed on at twelve midnight...The amazing thing is about 3 or 4 hours before I had been praying and crying out to God that He fulfill the prophetic words that I'd hate no one and and love everyman woulcd come to pass because I still had bitterness towards certain people and one of those people was my grandmother.. I am at peace because by the time my grandmother passed away about 4 hours after my prayers and tears I had released her and forgiven her but still I wish I had gotten a chance to talk to her and hear her out R.I.P Gran. I am sorry I never gave you a chance to explain things and I am sorry I wouldn't come and see you when you asked me to, when you asked me then I was not yet ready to see you but now I had arrived at a place where I wanted us to talk. However I had forgiven you for not coming to visit my mum on her deathbed and for not acknowledging my mum even

My main goal and Passion...

10[For my determined purpose is] that I may know Him [that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him, perceiving and recognizing and understanding the wonders of His Person more strongly and more clearly], and that I may in that same way come to know the power outflowing from His resurrection [[b]which it exerts over believers], and that I may so share His sufferings as to be continually transformed [in spirit into His likeness even] to His death, [in the hope] 11That if possible I may attain to the [[c]spiritual and moral] resurrection [that lifts me] out from among the dead [even while in the body]. 12Not that I have now attained [this ideal], or have already been made perfect, but I press on to lay hold of (grasp) and make my own, that for which Christ Jesus (the Messiah) has laid hold of me and made me His own. 13I do not consider, brethren, that I have captured and made it my own [yet]; but one thing I do [it is my one aspiration]: forgetting what l

New Era for Taffy

Today is not only a historic day for Zimbabwe but a historic day and the dawn of a new era in my life too. Today I quit my job ...right I am just serving my notice period, I have been thinking about it for a while and have been so dissatisfied with my working conditions and so today I quit. Part of the reason I quit was because I have been making my job look like its what sustains me and yet it is the Lord. Its a bit scary and yet I feel such a peace about. I will use this time of unemployement to volunteer at church and also to study and develop my business plans since I am an entreprenuer in the making...This is the time to start researching and writing my business proposals and talking to the right people and getting mentored by those who have also taken a leap and gone into business not knowing where God was leading them but just trusting in God's voice.. I have hearkened God's voice telling me to walk on the water and I am going to do just that. When God told Peter to walk

Dawn of a new era in Zimbabwe

Today is a historic day for Zimbabwe, The dawn of a new era in Zimbabwe ….Our two political leaders Morgan Tsvangirai and Robert Mugabe signed a power sharing deal to solve the political and economic crisis in Zimbabwe. It was spoken in 1998 through Cindy Jacobs prophecy….that there would be reconciliation in Zimbabwe and that a treaty would be signed….so here it Amos 3:7 “Surely the Lord Jehovah will do nothing, except he reveal his secret unto his servants the prophets.” I am so happy to see the fulfillment of God’s word over out beautiful land Zimbabwe all I can do is sing Henry Olonga’s song over and over right now because I am ecstatic!!!! Some people may say Morgan Tsvanngirai was the winner of the election and therefore should have all the powers but I still say due to the polarisation , It would never have worked to have one party rule the other. So I continue to sing this song: “This land our land is our Zimbabwe A land of peace for you and me Once born in pain and se

Taking My Quantum Leap

I was attending my cousin's wedding on Friday and having a grand time with friends and cousins but I just knew I had to leave the wedding and go to the all night prayer vigil and It was not an easy choice brothers and sisters, the flesh wanted to hang out with family and friends but I had an appointment with Destiny and so I left the wedding and got to the All night just before 12 and God showed up, and you know the deal when God moves He speaks. There was a word and a prophetic spontaneous song that spoke of God resurrecting dreams and indeed many dreams were resurrected and new dreams given !!! I am sure many of those who were at the all night will testify. My dream is to become and entrepreneur as I know I am called to be a conduit of God's wealth and there to generate money for the gospel and the one avenue I intend to take is agriculture!!! A couple years ago I worked for Mitchell and Mitchell Fresh export who farm, process and pack fresh veggies to British supermarkets ch

My struggle with emotions...

Psalm 27:14 reads “Wait and hope for and expect the Lord; be brave and of good courage and let your heart be stout and enduring. Yes, wait for and hope for and expect the Lord.” Many scriptures command us to wait and be still and yet the temptation to run ahead of God with regards to getting married is strong at the moment. I am crying out to God for grace to overcome the temptation to be emotionally attached to a certain male friend who I am drawn to on many levels. I am also feeling a little frustrated and tired of being single.. I have been a Christian for a few years now, and those few years I have been mostly single or either in unhealthy or undefined relationships.. I look around me and I see people in relationships, people getting engaged/married, people starting families and its all things that I long for myself.. worse still being an orphan I have the yearning to be with someone and start a family but this can’t happen if the man God has for me hasn’t approached me. But, in

SINGLED OUT FOR GOD'S PURPOSE....

Its been about three years and I have indeed come full circle hence the new beginning. I have even gotten an opportunity to share on a Google group Tribe Judah – our young adults group on what God would expect from us in our singleness even though its been 3 years since I ministered. In 2004 I joined Mitchell Rose’s online ministry called Higherground Ministries. Used to participate a lot yes today I thank God for Mitchell Rose And I thank Mitchell Rose for realising my gifting and developing it and thank you God for Mitchell Rose for he gave me that platform to birth and name a ministry and allowed me to moderate Singled Out For God's Purpose on his online ministry 4 years ago.Here was an American moulding a Zimbabwean girl to be a leader in Single's ministry!!!! I remember he said these words to me- “ I want you to know that this will be an initiation into your own ministry” It is true, now that I am walking in my calling I can clearly see that God would want me to m

An exciting start to the new beginning...

last week was rather hectic coz I had been away on my mini vacation and then I was also attending a conference and Dr.Mensah Otabil from Ghana was here teaching and instructing and encouraging us, he had an apt word for Zimbabwe. We had an awesome time at this same conference and Bishop Marvin Winans was there ministering in word and song…He's CeCe Winans and Bebe Winans older brother and also Mario Winans father!!!!! and the good looking Pastor Michael Pitts from USA also came …Israel Houghton and the New Breed didnt come this year as they always do but we had Benjamin Dube from South Africa. Politically the political leaders were about to sign an agreement but now the other leader pulled out so I am just praying that God establishes His throne as the Prince of Peace in Zimbabwe and sorts out this mess. Life is not easy with hyperinflation and yet God always provides somehow. Meanwhile I am so ready to leave this job but I need a go ahead and an opening from God so its kinda di

08/08/2008- The day of new beginning is here at last

I am so excited.The new day has broken forth. I have just stepped into a new season. God has been assuring me and confirming it through the word and the prophetic word through His servants. I received an email from a stranger and it went like this: "Hie Tafadzwa.You may not know me,but somehow I got to reading your journal/notes via Farai's (name changed)page (she is my aunt). And I loved your note on the New Beginning and He has a reason. I could relate to both so well.Even before I read the note I just got a word for you.I know this is weird.Please test it.But I believe that it truly is a new season for you.God is about to bring a MIGHTY breakthrough in your life.Things you have been praying for, for A LOOOONG time are about to become a reality.And as you overcome your strongholds and barriers,God is positioning you for breakthrough.And as I look at your picture,there is a DEEP inner and outer beauty that the Lord showed me.You truly are a beautiful woman and God sees that a

The Beauty of Zimbabwe- Photos that I took on my vacation last week

Rewarded with a great meal after a long day messing around with animals and wild life African Kudus African Roan Antelope Me and the group going on a game drive African lions relaxing outside my chalets at the game park going for a cruise African princess of the Shona Tribe messing with Chibi the elephant Yes the African Princess walks with lions!!!! African princess and Daughter of the Soil on elephant back Chibi the African elephant Beautiful Zebras

New Beginnings....

I am excited as I close the chapter of this season. Today is the last day of the Month of July and tomorrow is the beginning of August. I am excited because August is the 8th month of the year and the number 8 spiritually symbolises a new beginning. I have been facing a lot of adversity and feeling a little bit unsettled but I know that it’s the process of getting to a new start so I am anticipating a renewal, new open doors, new prospects, new friendships etc. Tomorrow is a brand new season, a whole new chapter in my life carrying along with it a fresh anointing!!!! I am excited about what God is about to do in and through me, I am excited to see God cause all the painful experiences I have faced to work together for my good. I am excited coz God watches over the prophetic words spoken into my life to perfom it and bring it to fulfillment. Most of all I am excited and ecstatic because He has given me JOY for all the sorrow… and a new beginning!!!!

Jesus is with Us

“Though the fig tree may not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines; Though the labor of the olive may fail, and the fields yield no food;Though the flock may be cut off from the fold, and there be no herd in the stalls-Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation.The Lord God is my strength…”Habakkuk 3:17-19 You know something really encouraging? That we are NOT controlled by our life’s circumstances. That instead, those circumstances are controlled by Jesus. Even when our situations stink, we are not victims. We can’t be. It is impossible because God has a special plan for each of us. He cups our lives in His palms and He is our stability, our security. I am trying to live right, but its not easy, God had commanded us to love at all costs. Walking the love walk is not an easy walk, You extend a kind gesture and it can be shunned .It takes faith to love another with the God-Love flowing into us. Right now I feel misunderstood, I thought I was helping out someone i

THE FULFILLMENT OF PROPHETIC WORDS GIVEN OVER ZIMBABWE HAS COME…

The name Zimbabwe derives from "Dzimba dza mabwe" meaning "great houses of stone" in the Shona language. Its use as the country's name is a tribute to Great Zimbabwe, site of the capital of the Empire of Great Zimbabwe. Our beautiful nation of Zimbabwe is a tiny country whose map shape is rather odd, our map has a horn and biblically a horn symbolises strength. However Zimbabwe is currently experiencing a hard currency shortage, which has led to hyperinflation and chronic shortages in imported fuel and consumer goods. Mugabe's critics blame his programme of land reform. However, Mugabe claims that massive financial isolation through American, British and EU legislation such as the Zimbabwe Democracy and Economic Recovery Act (ZDERA) of 2001 is the actual cause of hyperinflation. Under ZDERA, the United States is prohibited from supporting any efforts by the International Monetary Fund and other financial institutions to extend loan

Godly Sonship...

I had such a blessed and awesome weekend. We had an all night prayer vigil at our house because my housemate is a house group leader. It was just us young single ladies and we first had dinner together , then we watched a movie called Facing The Giants – a good Christian movie and then we started sharing our lives and what we were expecting God to do for us at the all night prayer then we started praying. And God showed up..and u know the deal when God shows up He moves and He speaks. I am overwhelmed..., I cannot even begin to explain what He has been revealing to me through His word and through prophetic words so far this week. I have a passion for entreprenuaship and women’s ministry, I am about empowering women and so on Sunday on my way to church in a lady in the same lift who I did not even know said to me 'you are going to be a prominent businesswoman and said she saw me standing in front of many women and addresing them and said that she kept getting the word “ladies” and i

Funeral Blues

This poem was read out at the funeral in the movie Four Weddings and A Funeral and I dedicate to a cousin that I love and hold dearly to my heart Joseph Msika Junior. Joe lost his dad on Friday the 20th of June 2008. Joe's dad was a medical doctor and he had just attended to two patients when he just collapsed and died..in the line of duty!!!! When I got to the hospital where BaJoe worked, they had not yet put away his body. My heart broke when I watched them remove his watch and valuables and hand over the rest of his belongings over to Joe ...I wept. Joe's dad loved him and Joe loved him too but his biggest regret right now is that he never got to say it to his dad's face that he loved him even though he did. I choose to believe that he knew that Joe and his other children loved him Rest in Cousin Wilfred aka BaJoe or Blaz the Good Doc Willy. Your son Joe and the entire family will miss you. Funeral Blues By W.H.Auden Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone, Prevent

Making peace with my tears...sob,sob,sob..

“No tears in the writer, no tears in the reader. No surprise for the writer, no surprise for the reader.” ~Robert Frost I cry easily and often, Happy tears, sad tears, over-the-top tears…I am crier and can now say that I am glad I am. I cry at weddings, I cry when my friends give me gifts as well, I cry when someone makes good speech and I even cry when I am reading a sad book. Out of sheer joy, I cry at church more than anywhere else. When I hear a wondrous truth spoken or a glorious song lifted in praise, when I see a new believer step forward or an old saint read the Scriptures, I'm so overwhelmed with God's presence that tears flow down my cheeks. . I wail loudly and groan in the intercession rooms and then I feel a little awkward afterwards. But now I have finally come to that place where I have made peace with my non-stop tears. I have a gift of compassion/Mercy gift, I want more than anything to help hurting people in my church who go to the altar for prayer. But the mi

Bitter- Sweet Process Part 2

The past weekend was bittersweet, The guy I like …Archie came to see me at work and he asked me to print out his resume. It wasn’t well formatted so I volunteered to retype it and I must say I did a pretty good job and managed to put into words what He had failed to put across. Archie is an Actuary ..He graduated from the University Of Waterloo, Canada with an Honours degree in Mathematics in Acturial Science and Statistics so I guess he’s just good at balancing figures and sums and doesn’t know much about writing. He was very happy with the resume I typed for him and He was so happy to see me… He is always smiling and vibrant and cheerful…the other ladies I share an office with have all fallen in love with his smile. As I was going through his resume, my heart leapt …our hearts beat for the same causes. He has a passions for politics and macro-economic development and is interested in stock markets and its just what I like. I have a passion for women’s ministry and He has a passion fo

Taffy is established....

I can now safely say that I am now firmly established in God. I have not been serving in any ministry at church or online ever since I ran the online single's ministry 3 years ago since then but now I know that the seed of calling had to die in order to produce growth and fruit..and I know God will do more through me and in me. My roots hav now grown even deeper and deeper into the love of God and whatever the devil is gonna try to throw at me will just shake me but not move me. My prayer life is on another level.Gone are the days I would watch the clock during prayer time because I wasn't comfortable being alone with God, now I look forward to being alone and can pray in tongues for 2-3 hours without realizing how time has gone I can't even wait to have children coz I know that the fruit of my womb is blessed and they will be taught by the Lord , they will not have to fight the battles that i have had to fight being a 1st generation christian coz they are children of promi

MY Establishment-

On this day the 31st of May 2008, My covenant with God was established for me and my offspring and I honoured the Men of God’s children, after I gave a love offering to the Men of God and their children, I realised that : Hebrews 7:9-10 (Amplified Bible) “9A person might even say that Levi [the father of the priestly tribe] himself, who received tithes (the tenth), paid tithes through Abraham, 10For he was still in the loins of his forefather [Abraham] when Melchizedek met him [Abraham].” My covenant with God establishes generations to come. I made a covenant for the children who are in my womb so my seed honoured the children of the Men of God , therefore God has established both me and my descendant because they are in my womb. I am a reformer and my descendants will be blessed. PROMISES FROM GOD’S WORD ABOUT MY DESCENDANTS Psalm 102:28 (New International Version) 28 The children of your servants will live in your presence; their descendants will be established before you." Psal

Taffy....is a woman in love!!!

My eyes are still teary, I took an hour’s break from work and went to sit in the garden and continued to read Francine River’s Redeeming Love. God began to speak tenderly to me and I couldn’t stop weeping, How He could ever love me in my broken state I cannot fathom.The character Angel in Francine Rivers had never known what love was, the result of an unwanted pregnancy from a woman’s adulterous affair with a married man, Angel eavesdrops on her father saying that He does not want Angel but only wants her mother..Eventually her mother dies and she is sold off as a child prostitute at eight and is abused by the people who own her until Michael Hosea sees her and obeys God’s word to marry Angel despite her profession and past. The struggle for Angel to receive Michael’s love made me weep even harder because I have not been letting God love me fully…Almost like expecting God to treat me like the people who raped me , molested me as a little girl and the people who used and abused me as an

In pursuit of purity...

After having been led by the Holy Spirit, when I was picking a book from the church library...I picked"Every Woman's battle" by Shannon Ethridge & Stephen Arterburn. I have only just started reading this book but have come to realise that God wants to restore me but for Him to restore me, I need to pursue purity, not just sexually but emotionally as well. I have so much I need to let go and some mindsets that have to go. The only way women can survive the intense struggle for sexual integrity is by guarding not just our bodies, but our minds and hearts as well... So I am on a quest to be the woman that God's called me to be.I am also reading "Questions Women Ask in Private" - by Norm Wright. These books are really enlightening and I think I am going to buy my own copy of the book by Norm Wright because it touched on questions that married women have and has parenting questions and answers ..great book. Thank you God for making such rich Christian materia

Pressing In for Breakthrough

I have never felt as close to God as I feel now, I have been so lucky to have been housemates with a praying woman, Emma helped me in so many ways...she helped activate my prayer gift of intercession, It was in the very house that I am staying in that I received a higher level of tongues..It was more of a fresh anointing.. God had revealed himself to me and making me stronger in the inner man...giving me that Kratos (greek word for strength) But the road hasnt been easy coz then there was the love triangle ...and Emma was the one chosen and i struggled with resentment towards her and yet she was being so good and yet now I donno if its all in my head but I feel as if she sizes me up and wants to compete with me...and i feel like she looks down upon me spiritually and otherwise...I know this might be me Lord so O pray that you would shower me with your love...that I would be so saturated with your love that however people choose to treat me or look at me doesnt change how you feel about

Tribute to my cousin Thabani

Last Wednesday the 21st of May, My cousin went to be with the Lord. It was so sudden and no one in the family had been psychologically prepared for his death so it was hard. Best words to describe Thabani would have been gentle giant...He carried an air of authority about him and yet had a warm smile that had a way of putting us all at ease... During my wild clubbing days, Thabani always made sure my crew and I got in for free, He made sure we had drinks and made sure that we got home safely. Thabani was fun loving but in the midst of it all he would look after everyone.. My heart goes out to his 23 year old widow and his 3 year old daughhter Mpho and his two year old son Tanaka...they look so much like him. My heart also aches for Thabani's younger brother Tazorodzwa who's 20. Thabani and Tazorodzwa's mum passed away 7 years ago and she was a single mum so Thabani was all Taz had...In his eulogy Taz described Thabani as the gift that their mum left for Taz.. Rest in peace

Archie...my new friend

Two days ago I met up with Archie. Archie is a guy I met through friends on the 22nd of December 2006. We were sitting with the same group of friends and we chatted for a while...and then Dakarai came along and I immediately switched from Archie to Dakarai..that in a way was a bad decision which I later regretted after realising that I had become another Dakarai statistic and just one of his trophy collection. I remember saying to my friend I " I should have just continued talking to Archie and never spoke to Dakarai coz I could tell Archie was a nice guy." To cut a long story short...I never saw Archie again..until his sister added me as a friend on facebook and then my friend told me that the girl I had accepted as a friend was Archie's sister.. so I added him and we started talking again...and so May the 14th 2008 was our second meeting since December 2006. So the meeting was profound in that we were so comfortable and talking about God, our callings and where God is t