Echoes of a once wounded but now restored heart...

After everything that I faced when I had my child out of wedlock. I have learned a lot from my experience : that relatives and friends are more affectionate to you when you are independent and financially stable. It was a painful realisation. I understand what it is to have a low self esteem because you cannot even afford to take care of your child or even provide a roof over her your head and yet one is an adult. But I know what it is like to have God lift up one’s head because he did that for me over and over again. I started looking for a job when my daughter was born but God only miraculously gave me a job a month before my child turned one and yet I never lacked. God would prompt different people to meet different needs. Sometimes I had to ask, and this was the most difficult thing because I have this independent streak in me, probably because I went to boarding school when I was 8.I did not know how to ask and who to ask so I had to learn. Sometimes I swallowed my pride and aske

It’s always exciting to begin a new thing, be it a new hobby, new blog or new project but the challenge lies in being able to complete it. It takes a lot more to see a project through to the end and for me when I started this new series of posts I was bubbling, I couldn’t wait to get started now it’s taking a lot more from. It’s taking a lot of self motivation and self discipline yet I must write because The Lord asked me to write. When my delivery dates drew close I was beginning to get excited and even my child’s father was calling incessantly and taking an interest in the baby, he started to countdown to the delivery date and would send a countdown text message daily so I started to thank God. You see I had asked God that if it were possible I wanted my baby to be born in a loving atmosphere where even if her dad and I were not together, but were we would at least both be excited about her arrival and that’s exactly what God did and for that I am grateful. I went past the du

When it suddenly dawned on me that I could be with child, I had missed my period and was suffering from severe headaches. I gathered up the courage to buy a pregnancy test kit. Even though I had taken the morning after pill after conception. I felt like I was pregnant. I resolved to contact the would be father of my child and he at first seemed happy and even casually joked about it. After I had taken the test however I told him the good news and was surprised to hear him ask me what the way forward was. I told him that abortion was not an option and his answer was that he was not in a good financial position so abortion was the only solution!!! We exchanged words and parted ways and he told me point blank that I was on my own. He would later on continue to send me text messages demanding that I abort because I would not make a competent mother and would not stop texting me.I realise it was a tactic to put me under pressure so that I could give in and abort or at least miscarry.

Rev 21:5 And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new. And he said unto me, Write: for these words are true and faithful I am so nervous about this post for some reason, I almost feel as if I am a first time blogger and yet I have written so many posts over the years. Why I am so semi-nervous and excited at the same time is because just like in Revelations 21:5 He has made all things new...and the Lord has made all things new in my life, in my relationship with Him and in every way so He said to me through different people Taffy write..... I took heed and started to write this post because like He said, these words are true and faithful. I am a living witness that those words are true. ..My life is a testimony and once again I find myself quoting yet another scripture. 1Jn 1:1 That which was from the beginning, which we have heard, which we have seen with our eyes, which we have looked upon, and our hands have handled, of the Word of life; 1Jn 1:4