Echoes of a once wounded but now restored heart...

                                                                   When I was in hospital after my C-section in Mbuya Nehanda Maternity Home I witnessed mothers who lived in abject poverty and would not even have clothes for their newborn so I started giving away some of what I had for my own baby even tho ugh at that time I was not working and had nothing. I was literally living on handouts and assistance from friends and not even sure how I was going to provide for my baby after we were discharged from the hospital. It pained me to see some people did not even have cotton wool for the post natal bleeding ...I then immediately understood why I had been in that situation so I shared the little I had. I gave away some clothes and wrappers and cotton wool and even shared food that my family and friends would bring me because some of the people did not get visitors at every session and I had visitors at every slot and they always brought food and more clothes. Because I am an orphan

1. I am grateful for my relationship with God. He has never left or forsaken me. 2. I am grateful for the honour of being a mum to my Nyasha Grace. Just when i feel down she just has to smile or give me her random hugs n kisses and suddenly nothing else matters. 3. I am grateful for the ability to write. for me writing is therapeutic and helps me confront my personal issues. I. have suffered a lot of tragedies in my life including surviving rape at age 4 and sexual molestation and so I write with the intention to help others heal and overcome their issues 4. I am grateful for my parents Fanwell and Mavis Gotora. Even though they are no longer alive they left a rich legacy of love and faith that I continue to harvest from.The one outstanding thing about my mum is the odds she had to overcome. By the time she met my dad my mum was a single mum in the 1960's but she had her life organised. she had taken out mortage and owned a property and she was driving and doing well in

At a time when I wasn't exactly sure what direction my life was taking, an aunt recommended a book by Myles Munroe titled ‘ In Pursuit of Purpose’ and that book changed my life. Growing up I really wanted to b e a lawyer, in fact I recall telling my dad when I was 9 that I wanted to be the next Attorney General. Life happened and my A level results did not qualify me to go to Law school and my hopes were dashed. I then didn't know what I wanted to be anymore, I would pay and enroll for many courses and not finish and I was clueless. Then I read Dr. Myles Munro’s book. I took stock of my life and realised that I enjoyed reading and writing, better still every time I wrote something and published it online I always had a lot of positive feedback. I began to document and file all the feedback I was getting for my writing and then I knew God had used Dr. Myles Munroe to help me discover my purpose. From the feedback I was getting from my readers I was able to gather tha

“From Issachar's descendants there were 200 leaders who understood the times and knew what Israel should do. Their relatives were under their command.”- 1 Chronicles 12:32 I have come to realize that it is very important to know the season one is in. In the literal sense, when I know that it’s winter, I dress accordingly and only participate in activities that are conducive to that weather. Knowing the sea son also gives an understanding of what you should do.   The advantage that the sons of Issachar had over everyone else is that that they did not just know the times/seasons but they knew what needed to be done. When the rainy season approaches the farmer gets ready to plant …it’s like that in our lives too. In one season, God may just be telling you to sow but because you do not understand the season you may focus on trying to harvest. Some of us are doing the right things at the wrong time/season. For example, where you need to be stepping out and blossoming because it’

Your  gifting and anointing can take you places but you need to bear the fruit of the Holy Spirit in order for God to be glorified in your gifts. Exodus 28:33-34 reads “And on its hem you shall make pomegranates of blue, and purple, and scarlet, all around its hem. And bells of gold shall be amidst them all around. There shall be a golden bell and a pomegranate, a golden bell and a pomegranate, u pon the hem of the robe all around”. God instructed that there should be bells and pomegranates all around the hem of the Priestly garments. The bells represent the 9  Charismatic Gifts and the pomegranates represent the 9 Fruit of the Spirit .The pomegranates made from cloth are there to cushion the noise that comes from the bells so that it’s not irritating.   When we got born again and became God's 's royal priesthood, we received gifts from the Holy Spirit (bells) to wear but so that our gifts are not just clanging and empty sounds, God has given us the fruit of the Spirit (p

Talking from experience I have come to realize that God’s people often find it difficult meeting the right person to share their lives with. As the years go by they meet many people, but don’t seem to truly connect with anyone, and that can cause some alarm bells to go off. The perception that there is nobody out there that will be a suitable match, or that God does not intend for them to be married, can then easily get a foothold in their hearts. However, God said in Gen 2:18: “It is not good for the man to live alone. I will make him a suitable companion”. This is a general statement made by God Himself, by which He declared that a man should have a wife (and by implication that a woman should have a husband). It is true that some people have a special gift to be single, like Paul said he had, but then those people will be content with their state of singleness. This gift of celibacy is very rare, and God gives it to people who have special callings in His kingdom, like Paul wh

In the intial post I covered Joseph as a model of an ideal godly husband I felt I needed to do a little more expounding on two more biblical models Abraham and Boaz (yes Boaz he's a gud guy) First is Abraham, faithful Abraham, God’s friend. You know if Sarah had not offered Hagar to him, he most probably would never have impregnated another woman! And he had every means and every opportunity to. He was very wealthy. He could have any woman he wanted. But he practically worshipped the ground on which Sarah walked on, barren or not. When Sarah says jump, he says how high? (Lol!) Sarah says sleep with Hagar, he did. Sarah says Hagar insulted me, Abraham says “slap the insolence out of her (hahahahaha!!)”. This is Hagar who is pregnant with the child he has been waiting for all his life, yet because SARAH was not happy, he told her to treat Hagar anyway she wanted. The bible says he told Sarah – she is your maid, not my wife! Sarah says banish Hagar and her son, at first, he hesi

Hello Single ladies I just thought I'd share something based on a teaching I came across a couple years back...I have personalised it and also added a bit of my own stuff but I pray that y'all be blessed. I am believing God for a man like Mary’s husband – Joseph who the bible calls a just man. In those days in Israel, under the Mosaic Law, if a girl was found pregnant and was not married, she would be stoned to death and her family would be put to shame. So when Joseph found out Mary was pregnant, he was supposed to run screaming to the priests. But he just decided within himself to break off their engagement quietly so no one would find out. As he was contemplating the best way he would do this, God’s angel spoke to Him in a dream and told him 'do not be afraid to take Mary to be your wife, what she is carrying was conceived of the Holy Spirit'. Joseph obeyed God and offered love and kindness to Mary without thinking twice! He proved to be a man of men, strong an

But by the  grace  of God I am what I am-  1 Corinthians 15:10 From as far as I can remember even as a little girl the grace of God has always been on my life in such a distinct way. It has been so distinct that it resulted in me being misunderstood and rejected by family and friends and left me apologetic for its presence in my life. By the end of my first term of first grade I had taught myself to read and I  read an entire high school novel and narrated the whole story in the novel to my parents who were shocked at my abilities. By second grade I was reading newspapers with my dad and he liked to move around with me showing off that his 7 year old could read a newspaper. By the time I was in third grade teachers marvelled at my reading abilities.I still have my report cards which say that at the age of 8 I actually read like a 13 year old! I was top of the class; on the few occasions I came second  was inconsolable. I excelled in swimming, hockey and athletics and drama an

Contrary to what most men believe women are not very complicated.While some particulars may vary from woman to woman, most things women expect from men are virtually universal. We learn how men in relationship ought to treat women from our fathers, favourite uncles, neighbours and Pastors and not forgetting Enid Blyton's fairytales and Holl ywood, Bollywood, Nollywood and all these other woods movies. More than anything the man in the relationship is a man who know his purpose and vision and doing something about it.While most women aren't necessarily looking to marry a millionaire, she does want to know that you have a good work ethic and that you have at least some ambition to improve yourself. Whether it's taking a class to advance your career or reading books that will improve your mind, women love men who aren't content to just always sit in front of the tube or hang with their friends. They want a man who actually shows a desire to improve his life and possibly t

Every  4th of May and Father's day  I celebrate a life well lived as I pay tribute to my hero, my superman and the man who I called Father. Fanwell James Gotora was born on the 9th of June in 1936 to “Mhasvi James Kachedzi Gotora and Susan Muswewembudzi Zowa in the Village of Nyariri Gotora in a pole –dagga hut” as I accurately quote from one of his journals. He was the oldest child in a family of 5 boys and 1  girl who named me Lillian after herself when I was born. Dad also wrote in his journal that he did have another sister who only lived for 8 months. Although my dad was a very bright student he only went as far as Standard 6 which is the equivalent of ZJC or form 2 and immediately attended Chibero Agricultural College because he had to send his 5 other siblings to school. Dad would later excel as farm assistant (that’s what they called them in colonial Rhodesia to a Farm Manager in the Zimbabwe Era. He was sought after and head hunted by commercial farmers because of hi

One Strategy God has given us to defeat the evil one is for us sisters to stand with each other and look out for one another. If you are not involved with the Women’s Ministry in your local Church get plugged in to the women’s ministry in your local church because God is setting you up. This is the season to tap into what God is doing and He is doing it through our sisters: natural and spiritual. I will share some scriptures to illustrate to you why you need to cultivate your relationships with other women younger, older, married or single, work colleagues, Zumba fitness partners, baby daddy’s sisters... any woman…its not the season to compete with your fellow sister but the season to complete and complement one another. A lots of teaching has been done on Ruth and Boaz but today I want to hone in on Naomi’s unique relationship with Ruth. I believe Ruth had tapped in to what God was doing in Naomi’s life and had watched her mother-in-law pray and even worshipped along with her, The

 I have been a single saved sister in the church for more than a decade and one scenario of heartbreak that I have seen wreck the hearts of many single women in the church is when they entangle themselves in an undefined relationship with a guy who has not made it official. I am talking about that scenario where a guy gets your number, starts calling and watsapping you. He picks you up and drops you off whenever you need transport, You are inseparable and most of your spare time is spent in this guy's company..You guys even pray together and share your dreams and visions and cannot go a day being apart from each other but he has not made it official. He even calls you pet names and maybe you have even met all his friends and family BUT he has not made his intentions known and so you have started making excuses for him that he is scared and he wants to be sure in the mean time since this non-commiter guy is always hogging your attention the guy who is really into you cannot even a