An exciting start to the new beginning...

last week was rather hectic coz I had been away on my mini vacation and then I was also attending a conference and Dr.Mensah Otabil from Ghana was here teaching and instructing and encouraging us, he had an apt word for Zimbabwe. We had an awesome time at this same conference and Bishop Marvin Winans was there ministering in word and song…He's CeCe Winans and Bebe Winans older brother and also Mario Winans father!!!!! and the good looking Pastor Michael Pitts from USA also came …Israel Houghton and the New Breed didnt come this year as they always do but we had Benjamin Dube from South Africa.

Politically the political leaders were about to sign an agreement but now the other leader pulled out so I am just praying that God establishes His throne as the Prince of Peace in Zimbabwe and sorts out this mess. Life is not easy with hyperinflation and yet God always provides somehow.

Meanwhile I am so ready to leave this job but I need a go ahead and an opening from God so its kinda difficult and there is also some injustice that goes on at my workplace that God wants me to stand up to and I have been trying to avoid it but I know I have to speak.Gotta keep pressing in.

Yesterday morning prayer was powerful..there was a Kingly anointing present and yes we all got an impartation and I am now more ready than ever to start tapping into my destiny and this will require me to sow more time and prayer and myself , my gifts and my resources into the Kingdom. I am just asking the Lord for mentors and instructors to guide me into my destiny ..

The most bizarre thing happened to me last week. I had been bugging God about my husband to be when I got a picture cum vision of a guy and actually heard him speak with an accent etc. Anyway I just ignored it ..then come Friday nite at the conference the guy who was supposed to give me a lift home started trippin so I just decided to walk to town from the conference and think of a plan and then a car stopped before I got to the gate and they offered to give me a lift into town and just as I got into the car…the guy who was driving then stopped another car and said to me "you can go into that other car, that guy is going to Mabelreign" (thats where I live)and so I went into the other car going to mabelreign and to my shock the guy was the exact guy I saw in the vision. I was scared outta my wits and he must have wondered that why is this girl staring at me like that dang!!! We got talking and yeah he's a nice person. Been saved since last December so this is his 8th month and yet he's so much on fire and talks like someone who's been a Christian for years. He's an aspiring entrepreneur and is farming .His name is Tatenda. I met him on the 08/08/2008.

I went to a wedding on Saturday before proceeding to the conference , ..got there just in time for the bouquet throwing and baby I got the bouquet!!! And then went to the conference and of course got a lift yet again from Tatenda and the whole bouquet story came up again hint hint…Nway we will see maybe the reason I saw him was just a sign that God's taken my revelation levels higher since he ended up being a great help transportwise I dunno, don't wanna jump to conclusions so soon , gotta guard my heart…I take heed of the word my sister Akofa from Ghana said "until a man opens his mouth to tellyou something, don't assume anything. Even Satan performs signs andwonders as if they were from God." So until Tatenda opens his mouth I will not assume anything!!!

08/08/2008- The day of new beginning is here at last

I am so excited.The new day has broken forth. I have just stepped into a new season. God has been assuring me and confirming it through the word and the prophetic word through His servants. I received an email from a stranger and it went like this:

"Hie Tafadzwa.You may not know me,but somehow I got to reading your journal/notes via Farai's (name changed)page (she is my aunt). And I loved your note on the New Beginning and He has a reason. I could relate to both so well.Even before I read the note I just got a word for you.I know this is weird.Please test it.But I believe that it truly is a new season for you.God is about to bring a MIGHTY breakthrough in your life.Things you have been praying for, for A LOOOONG time are about to become a reality.And as you overcome your strongholds and barriers,God is positioning you for breakthrough.And as I look at your picture,there is a DEEP inner and outer beauty that the Lord showed me.You truly are a beautiful woman and God sees that and He is proud of you."

It has been spoken and it has been confirmed...the things I have yearned and travailed for , Things that God promised me are manifesting and coming to fulfilment ..I am thankful Lord.

Started on the new day/year/season on a fresh note, Woke up at 5 because I wanted to go to Morning Prayer at our church , I tried to hike but couldnt get transport and I became discouraged and frustrated then I realised that the enermy was trying to frustrate me and so I refuse to let him rob me of my joy..no way!!!!! I couldnt make it to morning prayer this morning but the devil forgot that because of the blood of Jesus I have direct access into the Holy Of Holies , I don't have to be in a church building to be able to receive what God has for me in this new year/day/season!!!!!

The number 8 is truly significant. We are in the Hebraic year 5768, the Year of Samekh Chet! That means we are coming into "The Year of the Full Circle of Life--A New Beginning Is Yours!" You might be interested in reading exactly what that entails here: http://www.elijahlist.com/words/html/textonly-082807-Pierce.html.Glory be to God!!

The Beauty of Zimbabwe- Photos that I took on my vacation last week

Rewarded with a great meal after a long day messing around with animals and wild life

African Kudus

African Roan Antelope

Me and the group going on a game drive


African lions

relaxing outside my chalets at the game park


going for a cruise

African princess of the Shona Tribe messing with Chibi the elephant

Yes the African Princess walks with lions!!!!

African princess and Daughter of the Soil on elephant back


Chibi the African elephant

Beautiful Zebras

New Beginnings....

I am excited as I close the chapter of this season. Today is the last day of the Month of July and tomorrow is the beginning of August. I am excited because August is the 8th month of the year and the number 8 spiritually symbolises a new beginning. I have been facing a lot of adversity and feeling a little bit unsettled but I know that it’s the process of getting to a new start so I am anticipating a renewal, new open doors, new prospects, new friendships etc.

Tomorrow is a brand new season, a whole new chapter in my life carrying along with it a fresh anointing!!!! I am excited about what God is about to do in and through me, I am excited to see God cause all the painful experiences I have faced to work together for my good. I am excited coz God watches over the prophetic words spoken into my life to perfom it and bring it to fulfillment. Most of all I am excited and ecstatic because He has given me JOY for all the sorrow… and a new beginning!!!!

Jesus is with Us

“Though the fig tree may not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines; Though the labor of the olive may fail, and the fields yield no food;Though the flock may be cut off from the fold, and there be no herd in the stalls-Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation.The Lord God is my strength…”Habakkuk 3:17-19

You know something really encouraging? That we are NOT controlled by our life’s circumstances. That instead, those circumstances are controlled by Jesus. Even when our situations stink, we are not victims. We can’t be. It is impossible because God has a special plan for each of us. He cups our lives in His palms and He is our stability, our security.

I am trying to live right, but its not easy, God had commanded us to love at all costs. Walking the love walk is not an easy walk, You extend a kind gesture and it can be shunned .It takes faith to love another with the God-Love flowing into us. Right now I feel misunderstood, I thought I was helping out someone in my spiritual family who I know has a passion for African Capital Markets and sent him some weekly report that I subscribe to only to receive a cold reply that I should not trouble myself because he has subscribed as well. I was hurt that my genuine intentions were perceived as something else and it hurts but I am still going to praise God and still going to love this fellow church member with the love of God despite even if they drive past me after church even though they know we are going the same direction!!!.

Our love for one another is the fruit, not the root, of our relationship with God. John, the disciple whom Jesus loved, taught that our love for others emerges from our relationship with God; that anyone born of God who knows God will love with the love of God (1 John 4:7, based on NLT).I want to represant the love of Christ in every aspect after all , I may speak in tongues of men and angels and prophecy etc but if I have not love, I am nothing!!!!

I have just been told that I can only get my salary on Friday instead of today and though I wonder how I am going to get to Friday ...with no cash in my bag and an empty fridge and overdue bills...I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him for that day.2 Timothy 1:11-13

At the end of it all… I know this. I know that God is in control. He’s the creator of the universe. He made me. He saved me and He has my name written in the palm of His hand!!!. He LOVES me. And if this is part of His plan, then He has a reason!”So, yea… sometimes we want to yell out, “DO-OVER God!” But, in our heart of hearts we know… God is in control. He made us. He saved us. He LOVES us. And our faith rests in Christ, not in our circumstances!BE ENCOURAGED, BECAUSE WHEREVER YOU ARE TODAY… JESUS IS THERE!

THE FULFILLMENT OF PROPHETIC WORDS GIVEN OVER ZIMBABWE HAS COME…

The name Zimbabwe derives from "Dzimba dza mabwe" meaning "great houses of stone" in the Shona language. Its use as the country's name is a tribute to Great Zimbabwe, site of the capital of the Empire of Great Zimbabwe.

Our beautiful nation of Zimbabwe is a tiny country whose map shape is rather odd, our map has a horn and biblically a horn symbolises strength. However Zimbabwe is currently experiencing a hard currency shortage, which has led to hyperinflation and chronic shortages in imported fuel and consumer goods. Mugabe's critics blame his programme of land reform. However, Mugabe claims that massive financial isolation through American, British and EU legislation such as the Zimbabwe Democracy and Economic Recovery Act (ZDERA) of 2001 is the actual cause of hyperinflation. Under ZDERA, the United States is prohibited from supporting any efforts by the International Monetary Fund and other financial institutions to extend loans, credit or debt cancellation to the government of Zimbabwe. As Zimbabwe needs to import all its energy, and oil is paid for in US dollars, this made the country vulnerable to financial sanctions like ZDERA.

Zimbabwe's current economic and food crisis, described by some observers as the country's worst humanitarian crisis since independence, has been attributed, in varying degrees, to government economic mismanagement, government prohibitions on relief efforts from foreign NGOs (non-governmental organizations), a drought affecting the entire region, and the HIV/AIDS epidemic.

What fascinates me though is that although Zimbabwe is going through a rough patch , it is not the poorest and is not the only country under sanctions but Zimbabwe is always at the centre of attention because of two reasons. The first one being that God wants the world whole world watching this tiny nation which is in the valley of dry bones come to life again, The second reason we all know is that because Zimbabwe is wealthy nation with a lot of potential The West does indeed have interests in exploiting its wealth and that is FACT!!! Being on the ground and being an observer in whats been happening and the exxageration that I see on BBC and all these Western countries I sometimes get affected. This is a naturally peaceful nation, the stats so far indicate that ever since March 27 when the election took place 101 have died ..in Kenya is didn’t take 4 days for the death tolls to go up to a 1000…whats an interesting contrast.

Anyway I wil not digress fron the reason why I am writing this blog- I am celebrating a historic event that took place yesterday. The president of the Ruling Party (who I personally am not sure if he did win the election) Robert Mugabe and Morgan Tsvangirai met in the same room, these people have not set eyes on each other for 10 years yet they did and even shook hands!! They both signed the Memorandum Of Understanding which binds them to a dialogue and solutions over a way forward. I personally am not Zanu PF supporter but I don’t support Morgan Tsvangira either because I disagreed with his ideology of trying to mobilise the support of Western Governments instead of homegrowing the party and also because he kept pressing for sanctions and the truth is sanctions affect the ordinary man and not the government in power. I belive that what Zimbabwe is going through spiritually has a profound effect on Africa as a whole. Once Zimbabwe sorts out her mess its going to be a symbolic that Africa can solve her own problems. As a prophetic intercessor maybe it explains why I do not belong to any party ..but I can identify with the story in Joshua chapter 5.
Josh 5:13 And it came to pass, when Joshua was by Jericho, that he lifted up his eyes and looked, and, behold, there stood a man over against him with his sword drawn in his hand: and Joshua went unto him, and said unto him, Art thou for us, or for our adversaries?
Josh 5:14 And he said, Nay; but as prince of the host of Jehovah am I now come. And Joshua fell on his face to the earth, and did worship, and said unto him, What saith my lord unto his servant?
Josh 5:15 And the prince of Jehovah’s host said unto Joshua, Put off thy shoe from off thy foot; for the place whereon thou standest is holy. And Joshua did so

God is not on Zanu PF nor MDC’s side, He’s the commander in Chief of the Host of Heaven, that’s the army that I am a part of, My role as a prophetic intercessor is to pray the will of God and to commit to praying through God's prophetic purposes for Zimbabwe- the main one being reconciliation, in the past Zimbabwe has played a role in the Mozambique Peace process, The South African process and the Democratic Republic of Congo , We are the Switzerland of Africa. Despite what the situation appears to be, the prophetic intercessor does not base his praying on either good or bad conditions, but rather on the covenant of God…

For me the journey of intercession has not been an easy one…God has had to deal with my heart though from the scars of racism. After Independence although black Zimbabweans gained political freedom they did not gain economic liberation, the wealth was still in the hands of white Africans who constituted of about 1,5% of the population. They owned large farms, drove the flashy cars and isolated themselves from the blacks, created their own exclusive sporting clubs, private schools and if numbers of black children increased they would go and form another school and the cycle would go on. I remember my dad taking my brother and I to the country club because he was a farmer and there was a disco for the teenagers my brother and I were the only blacks and felt unwanted, we then stepped up to the dee jay and asked him to play some R ‘n’ B and he did reluctantly …then all the white kids walked out leaving my brother and I. This was a painful moment for me and this must have 1997, Here I was being made to feel like an outcast in the country of my heritage and birth. I was to experience this again recently at the time that I joined the company that I work for. It’s a white owned business and daily I was ill treated, maligned and denied opportunities for upgrading, I was slighted for a position that was to be given to a white, computer illiterate inexperienced school leaver. I became a reactionary racist until God dealt with my heart…and I forgave and released my antagonists little did I know that God wanted me to feel like how white folk in Zim felt with the whole political situation but the truth still remains that’s its not what it appears to be on CNN, White people still dine at the expensive places and yes white people in Zim do not use public transport, on rare occasions if you see a white person hiking it’s a tourist, they still drive nice cars and are running their business and they have not been asked to all leave Zimbabwe. However the manner in which their farms were taken was brutal and not done in an orderly way even though land resdistribution was long overdue and I pray for all those who lost their farms and yet I have seen some blacks who got those farms who are happy and doing well in farming so we will never understand how God works. In the Shona culture we honour the mid wife and adopt her as an aunt to the new born because her hands are the first hands that welcome and receive the new born , my mid wife was white , she worked with my mum at the hospital and spiritually the people that have led me to Christ or played a mothering role in my walk of faith have been mainly white and that’s what led me to then realize that I am called to the ministry of reconciliation and cannot afford to be partial to people’s colour , tribe or dialect.

So Despite what the situation appears to be, the prophetic intercessor does not base his praying on either good or bad conditions, but rather on the covenant of God…

PROPHECY FOR ZIMBABWE(Given by Cindy Jacobs (President of Generals of Intercession Organisation 30/10/98,Guatemala City, Guatemala)The river is to flow through Zimbabwe and I see a powerful torrent of water, a mighty rushing torrent, many fish. I see there are strongholds of division in the church and the accuser of the brethren is active to discourage souls. An army of women with the Deborah anointing will march across the land. They will be like a net all over Zimbabwe with prayer. With a powerful anointing, the women first and the men following.I see ancient thrones coming down, reconciliation between black and white, the spirit of racism which goes back further down to the tribes .I will use Zimbabwe like a Jewel; she will help feed the world with produce, beautiful produce, beautiful produce. God will break the curse that came through civil war-the curse will be broken (I know nothing about Zimbabwe) The Land will produce beautiful beef. New factories will be built.Zimbabwe has the ministry of reconciliation that will reunite the African people. The anointing of reconciliation will be all over Zimbabwe.Do not be afraid of change, although it looks like you are going backwards. I have a plan for you.Satan thinks he is advancing but I will expose wickedness at high levels.Do not be afraid.Satan will try to bring war, but this army will be used to stop war and bloodshed.A treaty will be written with other nations.Zimbabwe will be like a Switzerland to bring the healing of the nations –to break ancient things .Your nation came through trickery but God will restore it.You will be given a piece of land- a beautiful place to pray .The Annas will give their lives to intercession.You will build a place to watch and pray .It will be like a village with a place to sleep.Senior citizens will have places to stay and give their time to pray day and night.

Cindy Jacobs’ Prophecy For The Nation Of Zimbabwe And AfricaCovenant Church of Pittsburgh, 17th October 2001

The Lord has a word for Zimbabwe. This is the word for the nation:Weeping only endures for a night but joy comes in the morning. Satan is very afraid of Zimbabwe, very afraid, so he has sent his troops, but the Lord says, I myself have sent my angels and I am going to reveal myself to a people that has not recognized me. And the Lord says, I am going to raise up an army of Intercessors that have had to go deep, deep, deep like the palm tree in times of drought. And this army of Intercessors have clung and stood to the word of the Lord, so therefore I will use them to heal Africa says God.And I am going to release a mighty prayer army that will go forth from this land. And the Lord says I am going to stay this spirit of violence and I am going to begin to reverse things in this land. The Lord says, don't look at what you see now, but understand that I am going to make this a peace-making nation. And the Lord says, I the Prince of Peace am going to enthrone myself in miraculous ways there, says God. And this will be known as a country that is a peaceful country and restored. The Lord gives me Joel. That God is going to restore the years that the cankerworm and the locust have eaten up. This will be a Joel nation and a Malachi nation and I am going to turn the heart of the fathers to the children and the children to the fathers.There is a linking between Zimbabwe and South Africa that will be miraculous for I am going to bring great healing between these nations says the Lord. There are treasure of darkness that have waited till this hour in Africa to be released for the greatest harvest that continent has ever seen, and that the Africans will help protect and heal America, the Lord showed me that. And that which was despised, God is going to bring humility into the heart of those in America to humble themselves to receive this word because it is in the healing of the nation that is going to come the receiving of the Africans.The Lord is showing me that He is getting ready to build an east to the west road across Africa that will physically open up the heart of Africa. The Lord shows me that He is getting ready to reach the unreached and He is going to break open North Africa, break it open. I'm telling you God is going to break it open.AMEN

Godly Sonship...

I had such a blessed and awesome weekend. We had an all night prayer vigil at our house because my housemate is a house group leader. It was just us young single ladies and we first had dinner together , then we watched a movie called Facing The Giants – a good Christian movie and then we started sharing our lives and what we were expecting God to do for us at the all night prayer then we started praying. And God showed up..and u know the deal when God shows up He moves and He speaks.

I am overwhelmed..., I cannot even begin to explain what He has been revealing to me through His word and through prophetic words so far this week. I have a passion for entreprenuaship and women’s ministry, I am about empowering women and so on Sunday on my way to church in a lady in the same lift who I did not even know said to me 'you are going to be a prominent businesswoman and said she saw me standing in front of many women and addresing them and said that she kept getting the word “ladies” and indeed my passion is women's ministry.. and then when I went to prayer school was singled out from the audience and the pastor who was teaching said to me “the Lord has something for you and you need to tap into it, u need to stand in the gap.You don't and cannot fathom the magnitude of the things the Lord has for you...” The word about standing in front of people and addressing many reminded me of that day at my cousin’s place 2 years ago and thats the day Pastor Makaza spoke into my life and said that ‘Do you see that woman on tv ( there was a woman preaching) you are going to do that..”

I am not the same person I was last week, I am now a Son of God.. I am no longer a child but have known come to maturity in the Lord...as

1Cor 13:11 When I was a child, I spake as a child, I felt as a child, I thought as a child: now that I am become a man, I have put away childish things.

Gal 4:1 “But I say that so long as the heir is a child, he differeth nothing from a bondservant though he is lord of all;
Gal 4:2 but is under guardians and stewards until the day appointed of the father”

God brought me into Sonship this last weekend and because I am no longer a child I can now exercise the authority of an heir, and I am thankful that God is giving me greater understanding of my authority by defining my responsibility. And now He is taking me on this process of learning what Godly Sonship is..

This is the hour for the sons of God to be revealed has come..indeed as:

Romans 8:19 “For the earnest expectation of the creation waiteth for the revealing of the sons of God”. NKJV
For [even the whole] creation (all nature) waits expectantly and longs earnestly for God's sons to be made known [waits for the revealing, the disclosing of their sonship]. Amplified Version


Now that I know that I am a god, my life will never be the same again. To think all these years that I was saved I did not know that as a Son and heir I have so much dominion and authority because of who my Father is..until I read this verse:

Ps 82:6 “I said, Ye are gods, And all of you sons of the Most High”

I hope all of you who read my blog catch on to this revelation of true sonship because you are a Son of God and an heir of the Almighty God, Its time to start walking and talking as the King’s child. And begin to take an outward expression that matches the inner Son of God nature It will change the atmosphere and your surroundings. May God open the eyes of your understanding and may May you walk in dominion over every circumstance and situation like a Son who know who his Father is.. Amen.

Funeral Blues

This poem was read out at the funeral in the movie Four Weddings and A Funeral and I dedicate to a cousin that I love and hold dearly to my heart Joseph Msika Junior. Joe lost his dad on Friday the 20th of June 2008. Joe's dad was a medical doctor and he had just attended to two patients when he just collapsed and died..in the line of duty!!!! When I got to the hospital where BaJoe worked, they had not yet put away his body. My heart broke when I watched them remove his watch and valuables and hand over the rest of his belongings over to Joe ...I wept. Joe's dad loved him and Joe loved him too but his biggest regret right now is that he never got to say it to his dad's face that he loved him even though he did. I choose to believe that he knew that Joe and his other children loved him

Rest in Cousin Wilfred aka BaJoe or Blaz the Good Doc Willy. Your son Joe and the entire family will miss you.

Funeral Blues
By W.H.Auden


Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one:
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods:
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

Making peace with my tears...sob,sob,sob..

“No tears in the writer, no tears in the reader. No surprise for the writer, no surprise for the reader.” ~Robert Frost

I cry easily and often, Happy tears, sad tears, over-the-top tears…I am crier and can now say that I am glad I am. I cry at weddings, I cry when my friends give me gifts as well, I cry when someone makes good speech and I even cry when I am reading a sad book. Out of sheer joy, I cry at church more than anywhere else. When I hear a wondrous truth spoken or a glorious song lifted in praise, when I see a new believer step forward or an old saint read the Scriptures, I'm so overwhelmed with God's presence that tears flow down my cheeks. . I wail loudly and groan in the intercession rooms and then I feel a little awkward afterwards. But now I have finally come to that place where I have made peace with my non-stop tears.
I have a gift of compassion/Mercy gift, I want more than anything to help hurting people in my church who go to the altar for prayer. But the minute I hear their stories, I start weeping, and it would embarrass me until I came across an article that clarified that my teary problem was not an issue but a ministry of tears.
When you weep right along with people, your tears help keep them from feeling foolish. The Bible tells us to 'mourn with those who mourn' (Romans 12:15), and to 'comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God' (2 Corinthians 1:4)…so my tears and your tears help.
I laughed when I came across this verse in the book of Jeremiah 9:17-18
17 This is what the LORD Almighty says: "Consider now! Call for the wailing women to come; send for the most skillful of them.
18 Let them come quickly and wail over us till our eyes overflow with tears and water streams from our eyelids.
After reading the verse above I realized that my crying resume would have qualified me to be among the most skillful of the wailing women so I smiled and made peace with myself.
God can use anything we surrender to him. Laughter and tears. Joys and sorrows. Victories and mistakes. Strengths and weaknesses. We minister to others best when we offer our true selves—"as is"—not waiting until we've cleaned up our act or dried up our tears, but right now, leaks and all.
I remember praying for someone who had been through a painful childhood and been abused, she gave her life to the Lord and she wept and I wept buckets and couldn’t utter any more words as I prayed with her and loved her. And you know what? She knew my heart. And God knew my heart.
Psalm 126:5
They that sow in tears shall reap in joy. KJV
Psalm 56:8
Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book? KJV

Bitter- Sweet Process Part 2

The past weekend was bittersweet, The guy I like …Archie came to see me at work and he asked me to print out his resume. It wasn’t well formatted so I volunteered to retype it and I must say I did a pretty good job and managed to put into words what He had failed to put across. Archie is an Actuary ..He graduated from the University Of Waterloo, Canada with an Honours degree in Mathematics in Acturial Science and Statistics so I guess he’s just good at balancing figures and sums and doesn’t know much about writing. He was very happy with the resume I typed for him and He was so happy to see me… He is always smiling and vibrant and cheerful…the other ladies I share an office with have all fallen in love with his smile. As I was going through his resume, my heart leapt …our hearts beat for the same causes. He has a passions for politics and macro-economic development and is interested in stock markets and its just what I like. I have a passion for women’s ministry and He has a passion for Men’s ministry. Our eyes met when I was walking him out of my office…I just know it…He is the one. It doesn’t make sense right now and I know I have to be patient but there is a quiet confidence and peace in my heart about this….but it hasn’t come easy I had to come to that place of relinquishment and give up my dream of being with him to God… I still have to continue to relate to him in purity like a brother till he approaches me and I am not going to try and iniate or help him..He will seek me out and guess that’s my first test of submission…letting him lead and direct our relationship….

My housemate Emma pulled a fast one on me and I felt hurt. She invited our ex housemate over to the house and only told me 5 minutes before they got to the house with another couple. I have forgiven Napoleon my ex housemate but I still feel awkward that He used me and rejected me and chose Emma, The realization that he used me to get Emma’s attention hurt me and left me dejected. I came to that place where I forgave him but I supposed I never expected Emma to start dating him right away after having seen how cruelly he treated me. When Emma and Napoleon came , I went to my room and tried to get someone to pick me up becoz I wanted to go to the All Night Prayer Virgil but I was unsuccessful. I tried to sleep but Emma and company made so much noise, I felt as though they didn’t care about me and wanted to spite me. So I tried to run from this situation instead of facing it. The next day Napoleon was still there so I went over to my friend’s house. I then realized that I have to take my ground and be strong and courageous. I forgave Emma and Napoleon, and I am about to be blessed with a good man who respects me, edifies me and shows me my worth, I cant let the enermy continue to taunt me with the Emma-Napoleon shenanigan. I forgave, I released and I am a whole person now. God grant me the serenity and grace to bear this uncomfortable situation.

Otherwise, I am thankful that God has my heart in His hands….

Taffy is established....

I can now safely say that I am now firmly established in God. I have not been serving in any ministry at church or online ever since I ran the online single's ministry 3 years ago since then but now I know that the seed of calling had to die in order to produce growth and fruit..and I know God will do more through me and in me. My roots hav now grown even deeper and deeper into the love of God and whatever the devil is gonna try to throw at me will just shake me but not move me.

My prayer life is on another level.Gone are the days I would watch the clock during prayer time because I wasn't comfortable being alone with God, now I look forward to being alone and can pray in tongues for 2-3 hours without realizing how time has gone

I can't even wait to have children coz I know that the fruit of my womb is blessed and they will be taught by the Lord , they will not have to fight the battles that i have had to fight being a 1st generation christian coz they are children of promise, that just gets me so excited!!!! As for the father of these children I am very certain that he is round the corner I just have to keep gleaning and serving the Lord, Boaz will come ...and he will not rest till the matter is settled.

I came across this prophecy and it blessed me and I declare it over my life
"I sense a "Ruth and Boaz" anointing coming upon single men and women. A word to the Ruth's (single women) is: "Keep serving and gleaning unto the Lord where He is leading you...your Boaz is near!"And a word to the Boaz's (single men): "Untie your shoe* laces...and prepare yourself to redeem your 'Ruth'"

in line with Hebrew 13:7 "Remember your leaders, who spoke the word of God to you. Consider the outcome of their way of life and imitate their faith." I take this time to honour Denise Gaisford my sunday school teacher, Mr.Guzha my grade 4 teacher, Mrs Mhlanga my high school Scripture Union teacher, Mrs Mataranyika for praying for the Holy Spirit baptism in high school,
Pastor George Chigwada for for fathering me and realising my calling when I was still in high school, David Smit for sherpherding me, Paul and Delia Vandoros for nurturing me and grooming my leadership skills, Abigail James for mothering me and many that have sowed a seed of love and destiny in my life, Mitchell Rose for realising my gifting and developing it and thank you God for Mitchell Rose for he gave me that platform to start and moderate Singled Out For God's Purpose on his online ministry 4 years ago and affirmed me and encouraged. Bless all these people and bless those that I may have omitted.Amen

MY Establishment-

On this day the 31st of May 2008, My covenant with God was established for me and my offspring and I honoured the Men of God’s children, after I gave a love offering to the Men of God and their children, I realised that :

Hebrews 7:9-10 (Amplified Bible)
“9A person might even say that Levi [the father of the priestly tribe] himself, who received tithes (the tenth), paid tithes through Abraham,
10For he was still in the loins of his forefather [Abraham] when Melchizedek met him [Abraham].”

My covenant with God establishes generations to come. I made a covenant for the children who are in my womb so my seed honoured the children of the Men of God , therefore God has established both me and my descendant because they are in my womb.

I am a reformer and my descendants will be blessed.

PROMISES FROM GOD’S WORD ABOUT MY DESCENDANTS

Psalm 102:28 (New International Version)
28 The children of your servants will live in your presence; their descendants will be established before you."
Psalm 112:1-2
1[a] Praise the LORD. [b] Blessed is the man who fears the LORD, who finds great delight in his commands.
2 His children will be mighty in the land; the generation of the upright will be blessed
Psalm 103:17
17 But from everlasting to everlasting the LORD's love is with those who fear him, and his righteousness with their children's children
Isaiah 54:13
13 All your sons will be taught by the LORD, and great will be your children's peace.
Deuteronomy 28:4
4 The fruit of your womb will be blessed…
Isaiah 44:3
3 For I will pour water on the thirsty land, and streams on the dry ground; I will pour out my Spirit on your offspring, and my blessing on your descendants.
Isaiah 8:18
18 Here am I, and the children the LORD has given me. We are signs and symbols in Israel from the LORD Almighty, who dwells on Mount Zion.
Isaiah 61:9
9 Their descendants will be known among the nations and their offspring among the peoples. All who see them will acknowledge that they are a people the LORD has blessed."
Isaiah 65:23-24
23 They will not toil in vain or bear children doomed to misfortune; for they will be a people blessed by the LORD, they and their descendants with them.
24 Before they call I will answer; while they are still speaking I will hear.
Psalm 17:14
14 O LORD, by your hand save me from such men, from men of this world whose reward is in this life. You still the hunger of those you cherish; their sons have plenty, and they store up wealth for their children.
Joel 2:28
28 "And afterward, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your old men will dream dreams, your young men will see visions.

Taffy....is a woman in love!!!

My eyes are still teary, I took an hour’s break from work and went to sit in the garden and continued to read Francine River’s Redeeming Love. God began to speak tenderly to me and I couldn’t stop weeping, How He could ever love me in my broken state I cannot fathom.The character Angel in Francine Rivers had never known what love was, the result of an unwanted pregnancy from a woman’s adulterous affair with a married man, Angel eavesdrops on her father saying that He does not want Angel but only wants her mother..Eventually her mother dies and she is sold off as a child prostitute at eight and is abused by the people who own her until Michael Hosea sees her and obeys God’s word to marry Angel despite her profession and past. The struggle for Angel to receive Michael’s love made me weep even harder because I have not been letting God love me fully…Almost like expecting God to treat me like the people who raped me , molested me as a little girl and the people who used and abused me as an adult. God tearfully looked into my eyes and I saw the love …He loves me. The King of Kings loves me, I am a Bride of Christ. He loves me, as flawed as I am. I am sorry Lord that sometimes I have fallen in love with your creation instead of you…I have looked for love in the wrong place but now I know you are my source. I have been pursuing romantic relationships and this has been keeping me from pursuing Jesus wholeheartedly. Right now I just know that I am in love!!!!!!!!

Yesterday's message at the conference was about love being one of the two keys to unlocking the Kingdom.The pastor shared from Romans 5:3-5
"3Moreover [let us also be full of joy now!] let us exult and triumph in our troubles and rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that pressure and affliction and hardship produce patient and unswerving endurance.
4And endurance (fortitude) develops maturity of [a]character (approved faith and [b]tried integrity). And character [of this sort] produces [the habit of] [c]joyful and confident hope of eternal salvation.
5Such hope never disappoints or deludes or shames us, for God's love has been poured out in our hearts through the Holy Spirit Who has been given to us. "(Amplified version)
He then exhorted us to pursue love and said that our hurts and painful experiences create a love and a compassion for other christians. Then he took us to Corinthians 13, and made us replace the word love with our names for example my name is Tafadzwa so I had to say Tafadzwa is patient, Tafadzwa is kind, etc It was an awesome revelation of how God sees me.

As for the undefined friendship with Archie its been defined...Last night I went to a conference and I got a lift from Archie. He then told me that there is someone he met and who is the one God has chosen for him. They are not yet together as she is still resisting. It was such a blow but I am grateful that God had begun preparing me for the bombshell. I am glad that God has defined our relationship and I know I am going to be blessed by the friendship because Archie edifies me and encourages me in my walk. Part of me, which of course is my flesh still thinks that we are going to be together, because our views, dreams and some experiences are identical!!!!!!!! and Archie believes in having a big family and I desire twins and he has siblings who are twins so it would have been perfect. So Tafadzwa is having to die...I want to be in that place where I can genuinely be happy for my friend and brother in Christ Archie if he does marry someone else..this is not an easy process right now though but I still want to pursue emotional purity and I know this is the first test so yeah the sand castle that I had built is being washed away....and it hurts.
I know that maintaining emotional integrity will allow the greatest amount of freedom in my friendship with Archie and other godly young men. Archie shares quite a lot with me, he really opens up a lot to me but I thank God that unlike what I have done in the past I haven’t spilled everything about my past and who I am to him . I intend to continue sharing only what is important because I intend to make that type of deep connected relationship only with the man I will marry when we are courting…so I am quite pleased with myself in that regard.

In pursuit of purity...

After having been led by the Holy Spirit, when I was picking a book from the church library...I picked"Every Woman's battle" by Shannon Ethridge & Stephen Arterburn. I have only just started reading this book but have come to realise that God wants to restore me but for Him to restore me, I need to pursue purity, not just sexually but emotionally as well. I have so much I need to let go and some mindsets that have to go. The only way women can survive the intense struggle for sexual integrity is by guarding not just our bodies, but our minds and hearts as well... So I am on a quest to be the woman that God's called me to be.I am also reading "Questions Women Ask in Private" - by Norm Wright. These books are really enlightening and I think I am going to buy my own copy of the book by Norm Wright because it touched on questions that married women have and has parenting questions and answers ..great book. Thank you God for making such rich Christian material available to me.

Its such a beautiful and exciting process being established in my identity as a woman of God and Bride of Christ. I would really want to radiate the beauty of God. In the past guys have been so drawn to me but its always been because of my looks not who I am. Its almost like all they could see was my hips and yet its every woman's desire to be desired because of who we really are and not what we look like.

I realise when I listen to God and guard my heart , I will be able to savour and enjoy friendships with godly young men without too much pressure and expectation for the friendship to lead to marriage. I realise that was the case with my new friend Archie. Even though he does have the qaulities I desire in a husband, I realise that right now Archie is my brother and I really don't wanna miss his purpose in my life..I thank you that You Lord have given me the Spirit of love, power and a sound mind. I thank you Lord that even the vain imaginations that I have of Archie and these thoughts and feeling can be taken captive to make them obey Christ. I don't want to lose focus of saviour and husband. I therefore present my body to you Lord Jesus as a living sacrifice. I desire to be a carrier of your glory Lord....I need you Holy Spirit to help me produce the fruit of the Spirit and for me to radiate the beauty of God.

I think that the phrase "guarding your heart" has a lot of inferred meaning...and some meaning that is different for different people.
As a female, I think for me it has always been something like this:
*Control your emotions and don't make decisions about a guy based on how you "feel" alone. Really look at the facts, evaluate the person on every level and make an informed decision. Female emotions are a good thing, but they can get in the way if not kept in check.
*Do not rush into any kind of relationship with the opposite sex--including a friendship. I think it's easy to find someone that you feel like you click with and then spill everything about your past and who you are. Deep, connected relationships should be saved for a relationship that is nearing marriage. Share what is important and introduce other things about yourself gradually--as long as you're straightforward and not hiding anything that you would want to know if the tables were turned.
*Pray earnestly about this person. Until you know that each of you is on the same page, do not let down your guard emotionally or physically. Overall, guarding your heart is using Godly wisdom to guide your steps in an opposite sex relationship and keeping emotions in check.

Pressing In for Breakthrough

I have never felt as close to God as I feel now, I have been so lucky to have been housemates with a praying woman, Emma helped me in so many ways...she helped activate my prayer gift of intercession, It was in the very house that I am staying in that I received a higher level of tongues..It was more of a fresh anointing.. God had revealed himself to me and making me stronger in the inner man...giving me that Kratos (greek word for strength)

But the road hasnt been easy coz then there was the love triangle ...and Emma was the one chosen and i struggled with resentment towards her and yet she was being so good and yet now I donno if its all in my head but I feel as if she sizes me up and wants to compete with me...and i feel like she looks down upon me spiritually and otherwise...I know this might be me Lord so O pray that you would shower me with your love...that I would be so saturated with your love that however people choose to treat me or look at me doesnt change how you feel about me...

On the other hand my friendship with Archie is still undefined. He doesn't call as often I would want etc but hey for now Archie is my brother..I need to be more accountable to my gals and also just to guard my heart. He did make an effort last week to see me...He wanted to visit me at the house but I wasnt home...Then sometimes I'll send him a text message and it takes him like two days to reply!!!! well I sent him a message on Sunday and he only replied this Morning...two days later...but I am glad we are friends.

I have come to realise that I do not have a mentor and accountability partners...and I need to realign myself again and renegotiate some covenant relationships..and I have been getting Diana's name and even Eve Wazara's name . I am going to pray for wisdom, insight and instructions for renegotiating all covenant relationships

Lord I must decrease and you must increase.. I am desperate for more love and more power.. I pray that as I go on this absolute fast ....that my flesh would die so that the inner man would live out through me.. Lord, my prayer is that You will become an even greater reality in my life and that the things I have to deal with will grow strangely dim, in the light of Your glory.

I DECREE AND DECLARE, THAT I TAFADZWA L.GOTORA WILL EXPERIENCE NEW:
HOPE
JOY
PEACE
FRIENDSHIPS
POWER
OPPORTUNITIES FOR:
PROSPERITY
BUSINESS, MINISTRY, ETC.
DIRECTIONS
A NEW MINDSET
PARADIGM
COMMITMENT
ANOINTING
MANTLE
LIFE
HEALTH
BODY
WORSHIP ENCOUNTERS
LEVEL OF GIVING
MINISTRY

Tribute to my cousin Thabani

Last Wednesday the 21st of May, My cousin went to be with the Lord. It was so sudden and no one in the family had been psychologically prepared for his death so it was hard. Best words to describe Thabani would have been gentle giant...He carried an air of authority about him and yet had a warm smile that had a way of putting us all at ease...

During my wild clubbing days, Thabani always made sure my crew and I got in for free, He made sure we had drinks and made sure that we got home safely. Thabani was fun loving but in the midst of it all he would look after everyone.. My heart goes out to his 23 year old widow and his 3 year old daughhter Mpho and his two year old son Tanaka...they look so much like him. My heart also aches for Thabani's younger brother Tazorodzwa who's 20. Thabani and Tazorodzwa's mum passed away 7 years ago and she was a single mum so Thabani was all Taz had...In his eulogy Taz described Thabani as the gift that their mum left for Taz..

Rest in peace my cousin my friend...Thank you for embracing me and loving me ...

Archie...my new friend

Two days ago I met up with Archie. Archie is a guy I met through friends on the 22nd of December 2006. We were sitting with the same group of friends and we chatted for a while...and then Dakarai came along and I immediately switched from Archie to Dakarai..that in a way was a bad decision which I later regretted after realising that I had become another Dakarai statistic and just one of his trophy collection. I remember saying to my friend I " I should have just continued talking to Archie and never spoke to Dakarai coz I could tell Archie was a nice guy."

To cut a long story short...I never saw Archie again..until his sister added me as a friend on facebook and then my friend told me that the girl I had accepted as a friend was Archie's sister.. so I added him and we started talking again...and so May the 14th 2008 was our second meeting since December 2006.

So the meeting was profound in that we were so comfortable and talking about God, our callings and where God is taking us. He picked me up from work and we went to my pad and we watched a sermon on dvd by Dr. Mensa Otabil when He was speaking into the Zimbabwe situation and how God was raising up young Davids to slay this giant problem in Zimbabwe. After we watched the dvd we just chatted and he left.

Before I went to bed I got into a time of prayer and prayed in tongues for almost 2 hours then went to bed. I realise that Lord you allowed me to meet Archie because He is there to restore my confidence in Godly men since I had developed a disdain for them after several terrible experiences with them. For me Archie represents a real man ..a man of integrity... a man who's after God's heart and the fact that his passion is Men's ministry is a bonus. I don't know what the future holds but right now I intend to just savour the friendship and get to know him while I also learn from him and heal from past disappointment. I do not have high expectations ...its too early to tell, I will take each day as it comes....but I have been waiting for his call...and wow he has just sent me a text message...yay

I need to heal, I need to get over Napoleon completely...and I need to continue to stand on the promise God made to me about how I would know my husband to me... The man I am going to marry will have these qualities...


Isaiah 11:2-3

"The Spirit of the LORD will rest on him— the Spirit of wisdom and of understanding, the Spirit of counsel and of power, the Spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the LORD -
and he will delight in the fear of the LORD. He will not judge by what he sees with his eyes, or decide by what he hears with his ears; " NIV Version

"The life-giving Spirit of God will hover over him, the Spirit that brings wisdom and understanding,The Spirit that gives direction and builds strength, the Spirit that instills knowledge and Fear-of-God.Fear-of-God will be all his joy and delight.He won't judge by appearances, won't decide on the basis of hearsay." The Message Bible version

Bitter-Sweet Process

Me.... Tafadzwa standing tall like a palm treee.. that stands tall even in a desert...roots did deeper...


The past 5/6 weeks have been a bitter and painful process and yet sweet and beautiful as well. Someone (Napoleon) I had strong feelings for decided to get my hopes raised and then chose the other. i was devastated...I had grown so attached to him in so many ways...He had become a friend and someone who managed to make me smile...I miss our silly fights and yet He has never even bothered to call and find out if I am okay...I know he has moved on and forgotten about me but I am frustrated that I still think of him when He has moved on and is pursuing another girl.Yesterday and today I felt like sending him a message on His phone but I thank the Holy Spirit for self control...I did not do it and do not intend to. I am a closed chapter in His life and so should he. He never took the time to know me so He doesnt define me. He has affected the way i look at Christian guys.I realised that I have developed a disdain for Christian guys because of the way they treat girls...the impact of their rejection is more painful than that cozed by Non-Christian guys. It still hurts when I think all the time i caught him looking at me and i felt like it was love when our eyes met, It hurts to discover that it was just lust looking at me..It was like Amnon and Tamar in the bible..he was just plotting the day he would violate me...and then now that his lust was satisfied he won't even have anything to do with me...But like Tamar(name means palm tree)...my roots have had to dig deeper into the love of God and find the confidence, self esteem, dignity and honour that Napoleon stole from me. Even though i have forgiven him sometimes the resentment keeps surging back then I have to remind myself that the devil is a liar.Like a palm tree I am standing tall ..I am alive ..rejection did not kill me...I am tall and towering above my adversaries...like a stately graceful queen...
Yet at the same time that I have been in pain God had been embracing me and overwhelming me with His love...I have had the most amazing experiences in the quiet place and these awesome revelations that have just made my heart melt like water...

Mother's Day....

"This is the mother-love, which is one of the most moving and unforgettable memories of our lives, the mysterious root of all growth and change; the love that means homecoming,shelter, and the long silence from which everything begins and in which everything ends." —C. G. Jung, Aspects of the Feminine

May ….No Longer the month of loss and mourning….

my darling dad 09/06/1936-04/05/2005


mum and i on her wedding.. R.I.P Mum 26/2/1945-17/5/2006


May has always been a difficult month for me..It all started on the 18th of May in 2003 When my oldest sister Sikhangele Patience died from Aids at the age of 36 leaving her two beautiful children and leaving my mum with a broken heart. I had a lost a friend and the fact that my sister was 13 years older than me mearnt that there was a maternal aspect to our relationship. I lost my prayer partner .What kept me sane was the fact that my sister was a born again and spirit filled Christian. I knew she was no longer in pain and I knew she was happy in Heaven The 4th of May 2005 ..was another painful event My father who I looked to for affirmation and validation passed away at the age of 69. My world collapsed. I was so angry…I didn’t understand and blamed God although God never left my side and yes my dad was saved. ..As if that wasn’t enough My mum died exactly a year later in the same Month of May. My beautiful mother and strongest woman of God I ever knew died on the 17th of May in 2006… My 44 year old half sister Lynn Rachel died the very day as my mum but I failed to attend her funeral because I had to organise my mum’s funeral..Lynn Rachel exuded life and verve and she always told me that she loved me...I regretted not being there for her when she requested to see me because she needed money. Instead of waiting for her I left money for her to collect. The month on May has always represented pain and loss and loneliness but no more. From 2008 onwards May will be a month of gain and joy unspeakable….I will celebrate the lives of my lost family members because I know they have become heavenly spectators cheering me on in the race of life…

I Corinthians 15:55 O death, where is thy victory? O death, where is thy sting?