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I choose to trust God...


Although right now I am experiencing a broken heart, the wrenching emptiness and the horror of rejection and seeing the guy concerned go about his merry way and pursue another right in my face. I am going to trust in God. The tears have been falling Lord...and sometimes the feelings range from jealousy. anger, resentment, and one minute i think i am fine the next i am throwing a tantrum and throwing a pity party... and comparing myself to the girl who was chosen.

But Lord i know you are dealing with my heart, I know you want to heal me completely and restore me.Everyday I am learning .....I am learning to trust in you. I am learning to believe that you love me....that you know the real flawed and insecure me and yet you still love me...

I have to remember that you want me, you chose me....I am awed that you think i am worthwhile...

Lord I hank you that you have changed my name, that I am no longer called Lonely, outcast,wounded or afraid... I Thank you that you call me by a new name: confidence, Beloved, overcoming one, Friendof God, Joyfuness, Chosen and Sought After.

Now I know that I am Accepted , Affirmed, Cradled , Held and Loved by my Father God.

Lord, I am willing to allow You to bring Your revelation to me about the condition of my heart. I am willing to see if I veered off the path You designed for me from the beginning. I am willing to travel home and find Your healing so that I can finally rest in Your house . . .in Your heart. Please hear my cry and take me at my word. I trust in You and Your grace for me in this journey. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
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Don said…
you have the right idea. i wish i could experience the same.

would you take the dude back?
19 April 2008 at 14:26
Taffy L.Gotora said…
in this case the dude has made his choice clear...I would not take him back though i have forgiven him
21 April 2008 at 08:37
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