Echoes of a once wounded but now restored heart...

A s 2009 draws to an end i am sad and in so much pain and yet there is so much exciting stuff that God has for me in 2010, I have always yearned to be in church but now I find that I have to push myself to go to church because of all the aspersions that have been cast on my character regarding an undefined relationship that had no boundaries. JT is taking out his grief on me and a lot has been said by people and it hurts , I mean I feel naked...exposed, like really he has done damage to me and yet I have been there for him now, he acts like we were never close...i have been accused of stalking him and yet I never went to his place ,he came to mine lotsa times but how do I get through this humiliation?..…I just stand on God’s word and promise that I can choose to make this difficult circumstance a stepping stone to the manifestation of His grace and glory. And really my passion is that my life would glorify His name. I refuse to let the enemy use this situation to neutralize me. …We tal

28 September 2009 I I have wept so much and worshipped so much, the fallow ground of my heart has been ploughed up and my love for God and His people has taken a depth and significance unparalled in my life. I am standing on a new foundation of maturity and responsibility.Stability is something that has seemed to evade me at critical times, but my continuing to seek God’s face has brought and will continue to bring me to a place of divine stability.Not a stability based on my emotions or finances, but a strong endurance based on my faith and relationship with God. I have been in a rather long season that has caused me to redefine my life in every aspect .My priorities have been rearranged, my relationships have taken on new meanings, some closer and some more distant.I spent a good part of my Christian walk without root/stem but now my roots have grown deeper and produced fruit.It has been a stretch, but the fruit continue to be maturity and stability

Last May i celebrated my spiritual birthday !!!!! I rededicated my life to the Lord on the 21st of May 2000 and was received the baptism of the Holy Spirit two days later on the 23rd of May 2000. Immediately after this Holy Ghost Baptism , My Scripture Union teacher prophecied to me that I had received the Holy Spirit in a powerful way and had received the gift of Intercession and would move mountains. She also said that my family would change. A month later another Intercessor reconfirmed that I had indeed received the ministry of Intercession. I took this seriously I read every book I could lay hands on about Intercession and attended the Zimbabwe National day of prayer on the 25th of May 2000 just a few days after being Spirit filled because I was excited about God and the ministry of Intercession that I had received. I also came to know about the Cindy Jacobs Prophecy in May 2000 and now 9 years later I am serving and interceeding for the women who brought the prophecy to Zimbabw

I have been working for my church for the past 2 moths and loving it although they have been some difficult times but I just remind myself that I am working for God’s purpose and not man and that keeps me going. I turned down a lucrative offer in a secular job and listened to what God wants from me. I am giving a year to work in the ministry and from there on I intend to focus on launching my business and work on the book I am planning to write. Its not all making sense at the moment but I trust in God and I know He orders my footsteps. My friends and family do not understand why I am working in the ministry right now and they even thought I was going mad when I took three months off from work to seek God’s face….but hey even Jesus’ natural family thought he was going mad in Mark 3:21 God has also totally cut me off from many relationships, only those that I know my destiny is tied to have remained, even some close relationships have died on their own. Some of those friends that I k

I am at that stage where I am holding onto Christ with everything I have.I have reached the end of my resource.God spoke clearly to me and asked me to leave work and give him the last quarter of 2008.I had the most amazing times getting to know Him and bask in His presence.There was also such a grace for provision .He took care of me as I took care of his business. The plan was to go back to work in January 2009, but God then went on to ask me for January as my First Fruits to Him. I listened and gave Him January and even got offered 2 jobs.Then the delays started…the secular job which I had been told that I had got the job , they were no telling me that they were happy with me but still felt that I should go on a one week trial first in order for them to decide between me and another job applicant.Then the job at church, I had impressed them at the interview but they were failing to get hold of me till they were left with no choice but to find someone else even though they are pr